@98Z5VTom, thanks for posting this. I saw it when you first posted it but waited until I had time to sit and read all the way through with no interruptions (hard to do right now). It describes exactly how I felt about the job, better than I could do on my own. I miss it terribly but Mayra doesn't want me doing it anymore and I have to respect that. I keep close ties with local law enforcement to try and stay in the loop but it's not the same. I have to say, even with all the B.S. hating on LEOs I still feel honored to have gotten to do what I did and can say that I never tarnished 'the badge'. I always respected what that badge stood for and always will.