What do you see...What I saw when I was 14 was one minute I was with my bro going to find out what these guys from the westside were doing in our hood,then one of them pulls out a gun and starts shooting.We scramble the shooting starts.He keys on me I could feel the rounds fly next to me 4 or 5 I hit the dirt,dirt kicking up next to me.They jump in their car and leave I'm looking for Caesar,about 50 ft. he's on the ground bleeding,bleeding from his mouth trying to say something.I don't know poop about first aid,then quiet hes gone.My father because of Parkinson's and dementia said a few words releases his bowels and is gone.My father in law in the end laying their like he asleep for 3 days then came his last breath.The mother in law in the last days of dementia draws her last deep breath and shes gone.No big fanfare no big commotion.Then the friends and godfather who committed suicide with a bullet to the head,so heartless to leave the family to deal with the mess, the hurt left behind is immeasurable.The end that came to so many of my wife's patients in the end.I still wonder why I'm alive and my bro is dead,I could almost taste the bullets as they flew by.What do you see...after that last breath has been drawn ...nothing,there is nothing to see.You become the shell that you, we are.Gone but not forgotten on to the next adventure,hoping like I am, to see those that have gone before me,hoping to be forgivin for the life that I once led,....Live in hope die in despair.Ponder this brother Maduce if you die in your sleep how do you know your dead?